I’ve recently begun finding a way back to myself, my inner knowing. It often comes to me in dreams. I wake up with powerful emotions, sometimes so drained that I wonder if I rested at all. Other times I arise feeling energized, my dreams vivid in my head, and I’m eager to write them down in my journal. Today, I woke up with a fuzzy memory of me steering a tiny, cute car through an impossibly tiny parking garage, and I managed to bend around the curves without any sideswiping. I often try to interpret my dreams, and then I find I am locked in a story with my mind, making meaning out of things that have yet to be understood. I have to remind myself to disengage with this banter and return to my own knowing, letting the work of my unconscious mind settle into my spirit and guide me from within.

As I meditated today, inspiration descended. My dream revealed itself. I often operate with self-doubt and fear of my own abilities. I lack the trust and faith in myself to make things happen. In my dream, I was given this cute, tiny car, in perfect condition, but to be free on the open road, I had to navigate this gift through endless tight circles and turns. I feel my chest tighten as I recall the sensation of talking myself through it. And I did it! The magic of the unconscious is the multiple perspectives you can view simultaneously, giving a sense of “the big picture”. I was anxious and afraid, as another side of myself was gently encouraging me, and another part of me was watching the scene from above, marveling at the maze I had to navigate. I arrived in the outside world, from the darkness of the parking garage to the bright light of the sun and endless opportunity. As this dream materialized during meditation, I felt the immediate urge to seize opportunity. I have been told too many times that I need to write and to share my writing. I possess little faith in my abilities, so little that the thought of publishing this brings tears to my eyes. But today is the day. My heart’s work is to open and remain open, and the daily practice is vulnerability. I hope this resonates in some way and invites you to attune to your heart’s work.